Anyone who knows me understands that I have a very busy schedule and am always on the go. Whether I’m going to acting rehearsals, a pole fitness lesson, work, the gym or spending the afternoon writing, I’m always doing something. Unfortunately, over the last few months I’ve been stretching myself way to thin and experiencing high stress levels, that resulted in me having a mini breakdown at work! Yes, how embarrassing… Just to top it all off, last week I collapsed and was taken to A&E. The doctors couldn’t advise what caused it but my friends and family have come to the conclusion that I’m trying to do too much. Perhaps, I mean maybe they could have a point that I do need to slow down and take a breather. For someone who’s used to going 100 miles per hour, it’s difficult to imagine taking your foot of the pedal and slowing down.
I’m currently training to become a pole instructor, working as an amateur actor, blogging on this little space, gyming it at least 4 times a week (well I try too), along side maintaining a full time job. When I write it all down it does sound like a lot doesn’t it? I never realised how much I manage on a weekly basis. This could be the reason why I’ve been ill but I’ve been trying to deal with the stressful days as they come.
I’m finding myself being pulled from pillar to post trying to achieve everything. When you want to achieve so many things, how are you meant to fit it all in? Am I supposed to let one hobby or ambition die so another can flourish? That doesn’t seem like an option for me. It’s difficult to decide what part of my life has to take a back seat because I’ve worked so hard and made a lot of scarifies to get to this point where I have opportunities to choose from. Although, when it comes down to my health, I can’t deny that I need to make some kind of a change.
I’m not ready to let go of one of my hobbies just yet, I think the best thing I can do is ease off and make sure I have more relaxation time. Try to avoid packing my “days off” with back to back meetings and events. When I say I’m going to chill out, actually do just that! By making small changes to my schedule it will help reduce my stress levels and I’ll have time to let my mind and body relax and recover.